First of Many

I don't want to face the world this morning. I don`t want to admit its time to leave the safe refuge that is my comfy bed. I guess those are the emotions of trying to fix your broken marriage.I still don't believe it. I don't believe that my once temple worthy loving husband has bipolar and committed adultery. Today is a bad day. Two days ago was a good day. I liked that day. I had renewed hoped that this could work. Today. Satan is working hard in my mind. But I wont let him win. We will beat this. This will work. We will work. We will be happy again. I know my husband.I love him. He loves me. We were at a bad point in our marriage. He just came out of the hospital after trying to commit suicide. He struggles with bipolar every day of his live. He caved into his previous addictions. Satan won that one. But I refuse to let him win anymore. He will NOT destroy this family. He will NOT take my husband from me again. We will won this. We will be stronger in the end. I would love to laugh in the adversaries face and tell him what he made my husband do in a moment of mental and addiction haze did not destroy us, but made us better. That moment is not yet. Far from it. But this battle, I am willing to fight to the death. The atonement can help me forgive. The atonement can help to heal our marriage. The atonement can save my husband and family.

  To open their eyes, and to turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan unto God, that they may receive forgiveness of sins, and inheritance among them which are sanctified by faith that is in me. Acts 26:18


President Boyd K. Packer has taught: “There is no habit, no addiction, no rebellion, no transgression, no apostasy, no crime exempted from the promise of complete forgiveness. That is the promise of the atonement of Christ”


I might try to get out of bed now...